Family Victim (2010 Video)

Estu Wardhani: Self - Estu

Quotes 

• Estu : There are voices that speak in my heart... which repeat inside myself which protest and tell me, "you have to do this... this... this..."

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  Estu : because of the voices here, saying, "You have to do this... I ask the voice to shut up, but it keeps talking. Up until now. I feel there's another 'me'. Now I hate him so much. The one who is bad. Who is coward... If only he was in the form of a human being, I'd fight him. He makes me unsuccessful, a failure. Not like what I want.

• Estu : Maybe I receive all my siblings' difficulties. And they get all the good stuff. Their difficulties all come to me, I carry them all, on the other hand the fortune which I should also be given all goes to them... This is the path set up by God for me to take. In my opinion there are two answers to this. The first is that it's the law of nature, there is sorrow and there is happiness, there is day and there is night. The second is maybe I bear the consequences of my parents' or my grandparents' sins in the past. So there must be one victim who bears all of that.