On the reality show: Primarily I was embarrassed. Secondly, people didn't want anything to do with it. People were like 'Are there going to be cameras there? I don't want dinner. Are there people from Bravo filming it. Are you miked? In a way, I was naive and foolish to sign off on doing this. But at the end of the day, it was innocent. I wanted happiness for someone I was in love with. I put all my reservations aside and said 'Go for it. Do it if it makes you happy.' Then I regretted it. I lost touch with everyone, and mix that with my marriage falling apart and the show taking over, it was very sad.