I've been suffering from depression and I had taken two overdoses in the weeks before the accident. But that's not what this was. It's almost like someone said: 'OK you've lost respect for your life, now you're going to find out what it's like to really fight for your life'. I really shouldn't be alive. I may never be able to walk again. I can move my legs but I can't put any weight on them because the pelvis was so badly smashed.