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christinasludge
Reviews
Waiting for the Barbarians (2019)
Confusion reigns.
A really puzzling film from start to finish. As Depps swansong its kind of fitting though.
Day 13 (2020)
A shambolic mess
Didnt enjoy the film at all. Poor plot and terrible direction.
Outrage (2009)
An Inaccurate Misrepresentation Of Abuse
Accountability or heartbreak? I choose accountability.
I was the little girl. It wasn't my decision to make this film.
Imagine a film depicting your life story, Imagine this film being Outrage 'Born Into Terror' and imagine it was made without your consent for someone else's personal gain? How would you feel?
This story is my personal life story. My truth and my real story to tell about my heartbreak I have lived with and always will. I have told very few people of my story and it is up to me who I decide to convey my story to and who I share it with. So let me share that story with you now.
When I trusted a producer with my story as a close person in my life I never felt that I would be betrayed by having my story edited, used and developed without my knowledge. I never thought they would do this let alone without any thought for how I survived the horrific heartbreaking events and how I managed to rise from the flames of this harrowing existence (more harrowing events than depicted let me add) .
Today I am strong. The strongest. Stronger than ever before as I turn my story and my heartbreak of this betrayal into a story of accountability
So here is my decision. To let you know how this story was mine. My truth. My life.
I'm telling you as I chose to tell you this. On my terms and by my own will of engagement with you. I overcame the experiences depicted within the film. I became stronger than just being named a 'victim'. I became a survivor. I am stronger that just being a nameless person somebody once again taken advantage of and betrayed.
I am in control of my destiny and I always will be. With the click of posting this review I take back my dignity, my story, my truth and I void that betrayal as i choose to and move along and soar above the previously burning feeling of frustration from the betrayal. That is the true story of how I survive. Survivors don't stay static. Survivors don't stay silent and we have every right to correct any wrong done against us. We become stronger by not letting anyone harm us mentally or physically and stand up for our own self worth.
My self worth is today and forevermore will be incredibly high. This film has no true worth to any survivor of such painful experiences of sexual abuse and torture. I would reccomend anyone thinking of watching who may feel triggered to think again about pressing play. You don't need to relive a story told without the true survivor ending and without portraying the true emotional reconstruction and strength of my ability to overcome these horrific events to becoming the strong woman I am today. Able to stand up to anyone. Looking at you P.D, looking straight through you.
Yes the story to me seems like revenge. Revenge from someone I truly once loved. However I have now told my story. On my terms.
The producer of the film indeed talks about karma but karma isn't heartbreak and trauma. Karma is accountability. Karma is me being able to take what you used and correct people about your misrepresentation of my life.
I am not that little girl anymore.
My words. My decisions. My happiness. My strength. My life
For now I shall continue to soar.
Love to you all.