J.R. is drunk and dejected; he has lost his business to Cliff Barnes, his son has moved to England, and the ownership of his beloved home was given to Bobby. He wants to end it all, when an otherworldly creature calling himself "Adam" offers to show him what a world where J.R. Ewing was never born would be like. In this alternate reality, Gary would be the first son and would run Ewing Oil -- into the ground but become a successful lawyer. Jock would kill himself over it, leading to Miss Ellie's death "from a broken heart" two years later. Sue Ellen would be a successful soap opera actress married to Nicholas Pearce. Kristin Shepard would be a con artist, while Bobby would be a divorced deadbeat dad with a gambling addiction. There would be a third Ewing son named Jason, a conniving, manipulative real estate broker who got into the business by selling off Southfork. J.R. sees more of what a world where he was never born would be like: Ray Krebbs does not know that Jock is his real ... Written by
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So you're like an apprentice angel trying to earn his wings, right.
You've got it upside down and backwards, but close enough.