Lost and Delirious (2001)
Paulie: Lesbian? Lesbian? Are you fucking kidding me, you think I'm a LESBIAN?
Mouse: You're a girl in love with a girl, aren't you?
Paulie: No! I'm PAULIE in love with TORI. Remember? And Tori, she is, she IS in love with me because she is mine and I am hers and neither of us are LESBIANS!
Paulie: I'm Paulie.
[exhales cigarette smoke]
[shakes Mouse's hand firmly]
Mouse: Mary Bedford. Mouse, really... they call me.
Paulie: [chuckles] I'd rather call you shithead than Mouse.
Paulie: [sits down next to Mouse] So you're roomin' with me and Tori, huh?
Mouse: Yeah, that's what Miss Vaughn said.
Paulie: Well, I guess she didn't like us up there all by our lonesome.
Mouse: I felt like a gray mouse heading straight for the mouth of a cat, and there was nothing, nothing I could do about it.
Paulie: Liar! Liar, Liar, Liar! You've all got your heads up your assholes because love is. It just is and nothing you can say can make it go away because it is the point of why we are here, it is the highest point and once you are up there, looking down on everyone else, you're there forever. Because if you move, right, you fall. You fall.
Tori: Hey! Look, I know it's weird at first. But now, this is much more home to me than home. Like the lost boys in Peter Pan, right? Except we are the lost girls, right? Lost and Delirious.
Tori: I mean I love Paulie, you know that I do. She's my best friend in the world and probably the only person that I will ever love like, like in the way that... Cleopatra
Tori: . And to hurt her, its like I'm choking, like I'm not in the breathing world. But there's this life that I am supposed to live, this dream that my mother and father had for me and even though it is killing me Mary, I can't ever be with Paulie ever, not ever, ever again.
[Paulie enters the library in a fencing outfit carrying a sword, and stands on top of the table Tori is studying at]
Paulie: I shall make me a willow cabin at your gate and call upon my soul within the house; Write loyal cantons of contemned love and sing them loud even in the dead of night; Halloo your name to the reverberate hills and make the babbling gossip of the air cry out 'Victoria!'
Eleanor Bannet: Paulie... why don't you come down from there?
[touches her arm]
Paulie: [flinches away] Don't ever touch a raptor.
Tori: Paulie, listen to me ok, because I'm going to say this once and never, ever again. I will never love anyone the way that I love you. Never. You know that, and I know that, and I will die knowing that, ok? But it just can never... it just can never, ever, forever be. Do you understand? It just can never, ever, forever be.
Paulie: Mouse, where is your father? Did I see you cry? Did you cry like a girl? Like a girly, girly girl? I've been crying, too, Mary B. I've been crying like a girly girl, sucky suck for weeks now! And it's time... it's time for the raptor... Are you with me? I hate my father! Say it, it's easy... come on... Say I HATE MY FATHER!
Paulie: Shall I abide in this dull world, which in her absence is no better then a sty?
Fay Vaughn: [Reading a text in class while Paulie reads along in silence] "Come, you spirits that tend on mortal thoughts unsex me here; and fill me from the crown to the toe topfull of direst cruelty! Make thick my blood, stop up the access and passage to remorse that no compunctious visitings of nature shake my fell purpose. Come to my woman's breast and take my milk for gall, you murdering ministers wherever in your sightless substance you wait on nature's mischief! Come, thick night, and apll thee in the dunnest smoke of hell, that my keen knife see not the wound it makes nor heaven peep through the blanket of the dark to cry: 'Hold, hold!'"
Paulie: She's the only person who ever loved me, you know?
[Fay Vaughn nods]
Paulie: I think I'll die without her.
Mouse: Have you ever been really thirsty? And you open a carton of milk and you pour it in your mouth... and it's... sour. That happened. Inside me. Forever.
Paulie: Hey boys, didn't you see the sign? "No dickheads allowed."
Cordelia: [Tori ignores Paulie's beckoning to her and Mouse and sits with Cordelia and Kara, and Mouse continues to Paulie's table]
Cordelia: So... how are you?
Tori: First of all, whatever they're saying is trash talk. Stupid. I know you guys won't listen to it.
Cordelia: Of course not. God, I mean, even if it was true, I'd still be like, "So? Grow up."
Tori: But it's not true.
Cordelia: I mean, like, my aunt is gay. Like, get over it.
Tori: Yeah, but I'm not. Totally. So...
Cordelia: No, I know.
Mouse: [She and Paulie have overheard the conversation] She's upset. Give her time.
Paulie: Bedford, this is a dark day.
Fay Vaughn: Paulie, you looked like you were involved with the piece.
Paulie: Actually, I was just thinking whether the Jays were gonna take the World Series again.
Fay Vaughn: I don't believe you, Paulie. I saw you listening.
Paulie: You can go fuck yourself sideways.
[storms out of the classroom]
Jake Hollander: [after Paulie attacks him viciously to start their duel] Place your bets, my friends.
John: Go Jake!
Paulie: [brandishes sword] For my love.
Jake Hollander: If you're talking about Tori, twit, get real. She hates you. She's just too nice to tell you.
Paulie: She loves me.
Jake Hollander: Stop talking shit, Paulie. Tori is my girlfriend.
[Paulie glares and lunges, and the fight continues]
Fay Vaughn: I think our Paulie has just spiked the punch.
Eleanor Bannet: Shall we pretend we don't know?
Paulie: Hey, new girl, what do you think of Vaughnie?
Tori: [giggling] Don't call her "new girl," it's so rude!
Mouse: Miss Vaughn? She's nice.
Tori: Some of the girls say rude things about her.
Paulie: She and Bannet, they got it goin' on for sure.
Tori: Paulie, give it a rest. She's just a single lady, and they're very good friends, and that's it. Don't be so mean... or homophobic.
Mouse: She seemed nice to me.
[Paulie and Tori stare at her]
Mouse: I mean, um, normal. Well, not...
Paulie: I'm not sayin' she's not nice new girl, I'm sayin' shes a LES-BO! And she got the hots for Tori here.
Paulie: Who can blame her, eh?
[squeezes Tori's face playfully]
Alison Moller and friends: It's morning time, you lazy sluts! Out of bed, or we kick your butts!
Eleanor Bannet: What do you think you're doing?
Paulie: I'm teaching, Miss Bannet, what you should've been doin'.
Tori: [whispers] Paulie, don't.
Eleanor Bannet: Out of my classroom! You will go to Miss Vaughn's, and explain why you are not in my class, and suffer the consequences.
[Paulie doesn't move]
Eleanor Bannet: Do you hear me? Am I not clear?
Paulie: [smirks] You have a nice day now, Eleanor.
[winks seductively and saunters out]
Mouse: How much does it matter what other people think?
Joe Menzies: I dunno... depends on how much they're paying you, I guess.
Joe Menzies: How much they payin' ya?
Mouse: My father sent me some seeds... I was wondering if maybe, I could plant them somewhere?
Joe Menzies: Oh, uh- the dirt's usually a good spot...
Joe Menzies: Let's see what you got...
Joe Menzies: Ew! Worm eggs!
[Everybody on the field looks up and sees Paulie on the roof of the builing with the falcon perched on her arm]
Mouse: [Quietly, in tears] Paulie... Paulie... please!
Paulie: [recites] 'I will make me a willow cabin at your gate, and call upon my soul within the house... '
[Tori's eyes widen as she shakes uncontrollably]
Paulie: [quietly] I rush into the secret house...
[Paulie stretches both of her arms out sideways]
[Paulie leans forward and then falls off the roof. The falcon flies away]
[Paulie points her sword on Jake as he lies on the ground and runs the pointed end from his chest down to his right thigh]
Paulie: [about Tori] Give her up!
Paulie: Say, "I... give... her... up!"
Jake Hollander: Go fuck yourself!
[Paulie thrusts her sword into Jake's thigh, making him scream at the top of his lungs, and so does Paulie]
Mouse: Paulie, no!
John: Fucking bitch!
Jake Hollander: [to John and Phil] She cut me!
John: Fucking bitch!
[John and Phil try to help Jake stop the bleeding while Mouse pulls Paulie away]
Mouse: [Shaking Paulie] What are you doing? What are you doing?
Jake Hollander: You are fucking crazy!
[Paulie breaks down and runs off screaming]
[Mouse and Tori are sleeping. Paulie comes over to Tori's bed, she lifts the cover up, climbs into the bed, and gets on top of Tori]
Paulie: I bet he doesn't know how to do what I can do for you.
[Paulie starts to kiss Tori on her chin... Tori tries to push Paulie off]
[Paulie starts kissing and touching her. Tori moans... ]
[Tori pushes Paulie off of her, and then sits up]
Tori: Paulie, there'll be no more of this, ok?
[Mouse is awake, and she looks over to Tori's bed and listens]
Tori: I love Jake!
[Paulie doesn't say anything. She just sits beside Tori on the bed. Tori gets out of bed and stands on the floor with her back to Paulie. Paulie kneels on the bed and leans forward. Tori turns to Paulie then kneels down to face her. She puts one hand on Paulie's face]
Tori: Paulie, listen to me, ok? Because I'm only gonna say this once and never, ever again. I will never love anybody the way I love you. Never. You know that, and I know that, and I will die knowing that, ok? But it just can never, it just can never, ever, forever be. Do you understand?
Tori: It just can never, ever, forever be.
[She kisses Paulie. Tori gets up and Paulie holds on to her hand, but Tori pulls it away. Paulie leans over on the bed face down and starts to cry]
[while Tori is dancing with her father, Paulie appears at the party dressed in a men's suit. As she is walking in, everyone is looking at her. She walks over to where Tori and her father are, and just stands there staring at Tori. A few seconds later, Bruce looks over at Paulie. Then Tori looks over too. Paulie steps in closer to them]
Paulie: Good evening, Victoria. Hello Bruce!
Bruce Moller: Good evening.
Paulie: Bruce, I wonder if I might cut in?
Bruce Moller: This is a joke, right?
Paulie: Joke? I'm asking you... nicely... can I dance with your daughter please?
Bruce Moller: I'm afraid I don't think that's appropriate, and I don't think Victoria does either, so...
[She cuts in anyway, and shoves Bruce out of the way. They are dancing together now. And by now, mostly everyone at the party is watching]
Tori: Are you crazy?
Paulie: What? You don't like dancing? You used to love to dance with me on the roof, remember?
Tori: Paulie... please...
Tori: Don't make this difficult!
Paulie: You love me Tori!
Tori: Like a friend!
Paulie: As a lover. Say it! I'm in love with you Paulie!
Paulie: You say it or I'll stop this dance right now!
[Everyone looks over at them]
Tori: Paulie please... please...
Paulie: Then say it! Say it!
[Tori looks at her father then looks back at Paulie]
Tori: No! You tell anyone whatever you want.
[Tori walks away and her father follows behind her, leaving Paulie standing alone in the middle of the dance floor. Paulie starts to cry and Ms. Vaughn comes up behind her]
Fay Vaughn: Paulie! Paulie!
[tries to grab Paulie]
Fay Vaughn: Come here... Paulie...
[Paulie grabs her, spins around with her, and then runs from the party. Ms. Bannet walks over to Ms. Vaughn]
Eleanor Bannet: Faye!
[Paulie runs out onto the grass, screaming]
Mouse: [voice-over] Dear my mother, I almost got lost too, didn't I? But the pure love you gave me 'til you died was like a flame always there, burning. And just like the raptor, that little flame was all I needed in order to see in the dark. It saved me, Momma, from that deep dark. Paulie, she didn't have that. The darkness took over her so she had to fly away. I still dream of her every night. And I think I always will. And you know, I can always remember your face now. Any time I think of you I look up and I can see your face. My mother's face. Like a flame across the sky.